A space for me to record what I did or thought on any given day. Click a date below to read the entry!
WARNING: READING ENTRIES MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS FOR NINE SOLS, READ AT YOUR OWN RISK
January 2026
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Thursday - Start
A few days ago my therapist suggested that I try to do journaling, so that is what I will be using this portion of the site for. The last few days I have been feeling somewhat under the weather, but today I went into school so that I can get my last few assignmets completed and turned in before the end of the Semester on Friday. My gym teacher had us wright this reflection paper on her class, my cooking class was working on food presentation which was pretty fun, listened to some fun speeches in the speech class, worked on yearbook in yearbook, and in my shirt priting class I finished up a few design ideas. After school I did some practice for One Act, we did two run throughs of the play, both of which were under 30 minutes. Then I went home and hung out with my family for a couple of hours before heading to my room and playing a game called Nine Sols. If whoever is reading this knows that that is and is curious where I am, I just wraped up the Jiequan fight and I am currently working through a very weird section with some character named "Lady Ethereal"
Friday - Still Sick
Im still not feeling the best like I mentioned the other day, so I decided to stay home since I already have all of my school work done. I honestly am quite happy that I did since the snowstorm outside does not look very appealing. I woke up pretty late today but it was nice to sleep in. I really didnt do that much all day, just hung around the house and screwed around on my phone. later on in the day I watched some shows with my family, and then continued Nine Sols where I finihsed off the Lady Ethereal sequence, that fight was amazing!
Saturday - Straight up workin' it
Today I was forced to rejoin the world of the living as I had to go to work again, work overall was semi busy since the snowstorm somewhat died off, and everyone was rushing into the store to restock before the storm probably kicks up worse. like always it did die off right when it got dark. luckily no matter how bad a shift might be I got to work with my friend, which makes it a lot better. later on that night I decided to play Monster Hunter with my aformentioned friend and his girlfriend. We did a lot of rampage quests, which are pretty fun with a group. I also found a new youtuber which I quite like called Toadbup, they make content about old viruses, and also bad horror games.
Sunday - Workin' it 2 electric boogaloo
Had to go to work again today, but since it is a Sunday I wasnt forced to work as long, thouogh it really does suck that I had to go to work in what is basically a snowstorm. When I was coming home from work I could barely see the road for like, 90% of the drive home. Other than that the day was relatively normal, I got to have my favorite meal of all time (Hamburger Helper Mac and Cheese with Porksausge substitued for beef, genuinely try it!! it is so good.) I also ended up playing some more Nine Sols, and faught Ji. Im heading onto the Emperean District which is crawling with mutated shambling corpses due to something called the "Tianhou" Virus. I felt kinda weird after work and ended up pushing off plans to play with a friend, but other than that the day was fine.
Monday - Long Ass Theater Practice
Today I woke up somewhat late and just somewhat hung around the house again, playing games on my phone before later switching back to playing Nine Sols, I finally beat Nuwa and Fuxi which had been beating my ass for hours. Their ending was really sad honestly. After that I had some Pizzadias for lunch, and then went onto do a 6 hour long One Act practice. It was not fun, well it was, but it also wasnt. We had a potluck and someone brought Fuh (I think that is how its spelt) and it was really good. Later on I played some Monster Hunter with a few friends, and had a bit of a breakdown where I felt really sorry for myself.
Tuesday - Brand New Semester!
Today we started off a brand new semester at school. Ive started taking a Criminal Psycology course which should be quite fun, there is also a Dystopian Literature class that has started up. I am also now taking a horticulture class which means later this year I will help operate the schools greenhouse. I am also now taking a world art class, where we will try making art from all over the world, and we started with watching Disneys Coco. I also started taking an Accounting class which will not be fun. finally we started a Famous People class, where we will learn about famous people, it also started off with multiple AI generated graphics which made me a little dissapointed. Theater practice was theater practice, nothing too crazy happened, other than me leaving early for work which was pretty busy up untill the last hour or so which was nice because I needed to wet mop. During the day I also had an intense hit of dysphoria when I realized that I desperately needed to shave my face. I will say I do almost every day feel constant dysphoria, so I dont really feel the need to bring it up, but this speific time was more intense than normal. then to cap off the day I had an amazing time playing more Monster Hunter with my friends.
Wednesday - Snowstorm
Today was a bit of a funky day, we had this weird literary testing early in the morning that took up 50 minutes, and then we had one and a half periods of class where we didnt do too much and since there was a snowstomr projected for later that day the school pushed up the Hmong New Year Celebration that was planned for today. In all honesty the celebration was pretty fun, it was trimmed down a bit due to the impending storm, and I was really jealous of the pretty dresses the dancers got to wear. We also got to try some of the delishious food that was brought in, and then I left early due to an obvious early out. Then I went home and just kinda lazed around to be honest, played more Nine Sols and im getting close to the end of this so Ill probably stop writing about that soon. I also found out about a new app that im trying out called Finch, its this thing where you gamify doing daily tasks or self love stuff and maybe that will help me out a bit..? Then I rounded out the day by playing some minecraft with my very good friends and playing a game called "Lort" with them and it was fun.
Thursday - Felt Bad
Today was another weird day, but more of a feeling wise and not a schedule wise. at the start of the day in Criminal Pscyh, I sat next to a nice girl that I dont really know and she was really sweet and drew me a lil picture of hornet from silksong since she saw her on my hat. the rest of my day was pretty normal up untill theater where I had to leave extra early since I needed to cover for someone due to them working my Monday for me. At the store my mom showed up and she was really angry and even though it wasnt directed at me it still made me feel extremely off for the rest of the shift and even till now when I am typing this. Then during my break with my very cool and awesome friend I was showing off my site a bit since she said that he hadnt seen it before, and then I accidentally went to my wishlist section and she immedetly talked about wanting to get me a gift off of there since a few days before there was slight talks about doing a gift exchange, but when they started to talk to me about doing that I immedeatly felt really self concus because it felt like I was making them get me something and I felt really bad for it and now I feel like a bad person and friend and I dont know what to say or do to make myself feel like less of a shit person.
Friday - The Short Day
Today was extremely short due to the intense cold causing us to have a roughly 90 minute late start, and then later in the day I was in the One Act high school performance, which caused most classes to be about 25 minutes long and for us to not really do anything in any class. Then after lunch I went over to the Theater so I could prep for the One Act, and today was the first time I wore the makeup for my part, and it made me look like the Joker. Overall the performance went really well and could probably be one of the best performances weve done, then we did another run through, then shoved all of our set into a trailer so we can take off right away at 6:30 (aka ungodly early)
Saturday - Genuinely Crushed
I genuienly have zero motivation to write this entry right now. Today we had the big competition for One Act, I woke up at 5:45 so I could make sure to bring all of the food my family promised to bring, and ended up showing up to our pickup spot even before our director (who was also our bus driver.) We then had a fun bus ride over to Redwood for competition, we got all of our stuff in, and set up. We watched the one show we could before we had to get our outfits on and our makeup done. My makeup for this performance was genuinely amazing, and if I have enough energy to later on Ill try to attach a photo of it. Then we did our performance, and the crowd absoluetly loved us, we got by far the most amount of audience reaction that I had seen that day. Then we got a small chat with one of the judges where it was pretty damn postive, even to the point for half the cast she had no notes for us. then we watched a few more shows, I got a small gift bag with candies and flowers from my mother, and then settled in for the grand finale, the annoucment of the first and second place winners. Second place went to the show that went right before us, and after talking to my mother they honestly did really good and deserved to be placed on the podium. First place went to a Comedy production, and most would probably wonder why I would point that out, and I point that out because Comdedy acts never perfom well, I watched it and it wasnt really that good. They honestly probably wont survive Subs next week. Now in the moment I was mostly okay with this, you win some you loose some, it happens even if it is my senoir year, I was just hoping we placed third. Then we got back our offical reports from the judges and we tied for fourth with a 5, 5, and a 3 with a fucking asterisk, basically saying that we tied point wise with the other school, but we woud probalby place below them actually. That is the worst perfoming I have ever done in One Act, and in my senior year, and with a show that I was extremely proud to be in and had a lot of fun doing. This placed worse than what many of my fellow actors would say is our worst ever One Act, substance wise. What I feel is just an extra little bit of salt in the wound is that a lot of the judges placed us low because they didnt understand the realatively simple symbolsim that was in our play. I genuinely dont know how to process te feelings I have right now other than to just be heartbroken. Afterwards we went out to Dairy Queen so we could have some supper, and not even the power of Cheese Curds has been able to make me better. Now sitting at home writing this up I barely have enough motivation to do even my simplist evening self care. I just want to go to bed and sob. I really hope that during this entry I did not come off as some sort of entitled brat who thought that she desrved to win. I just wish that we scored higher than our worst.
Sunday - Recovery
Today was mostly just me recovering from the blow that was dealt yesterday, I spent a large portion of my time just lazing around, I also drove my brother into town for basketball practice, and did rabbit chores. I was also hanging out in my garage, and in a pile of stuff I found an old forgotten Skylander toy called "Tidepool" and I was so hyped with finding it!! ive recently been getting back into them. had some good food, and played a lot of minecraft with my friends, we play on a shared realm, and they requested that I help out the excavation of a subway tunnel so they can connect two parts of their base.
Monday - The Wright Brothers
Another just average day at school, in crimninal pshyc we listened to an interesting story about a woman who got lead poisoined by her husband, we read an intersting story in dystopian lit. beyond that nothing too crazy happened. Work happened, and me and one of my coworker had a funny little thing we made up. it started with them complaining about planes dissapearing into time vortexes or something like that, and then it transfomred into us making up a sitcom where the wright brothers went into a time vortex and caused them to stop making planes, causing a lot of things to dissapear from our modern world, like phones. it was very fun. after that I played some Friends Vs Friends.
Tuesday - Therapy Day!
Today was another average day of school, but we had a lot of classes setup projects that are probably going to extend for quite a few days. Criminal Psych we have a project where we need to research a mental disorder and how it results with a potential criminal act, Dystopian lit we did a test on the story we read yesterday, in Horticulture we got a new project thats like "reaserch a plant and new practices in horticulture", in world art we started working on our spirit animal drawings and I chose a Bighorn Sheep, accounting was bleh, and I missed famous people because I had therapy which went over alright. work was work and nothing too crazy happened, I did learn that we fianlly found out who was our schools "Poopy Bandit" which is a really weird story that I dont want to go into here. After work I played some more Friends Vs Friends with my Friends. I also started to feel dysphoric again which didnt translate into happy feelings when I played with my friends and I felt weird during that.
Wednesday - Yesterday Continued
Im going to be fully honest with every class we had today it was essentially "Remember what you did yesterday? well you are doing it again." though we did start on our famous people paper in my last class I missed yesterday, and im writing about King Henry's Wives. After school I had to go pick up my brother from his after school communion class, and I am so happy I am not in that class anymore, I hate that fucking religon. After school me and my friends got onto Terraria because the new 1.4.5 update recently came out, and it has been really fun so far.
Thursday - Everyone is gone lol
Remember how I said yesterday that everything was a continuation of the day prior? yeah that happened again. although we also had a lot of people gone as well due to Charger Pals. After school not too much happened, did my chores and also ran back into school so that I could grab a scrap of the blanket from our One Act as a keepsake. I also had the plesant surprise of my family being gone for the evening so I decided to take I soak and make myself a sandwhich. Then I played some more Terraria with my friends, and its going swell! although I did mess up a little bit and it caused me to spiral a litle bit, so I felt pretty bad for a bit of the game session.